I have about 40 plants, which I just started propagating. I have a bunch of cuttings that I’m waiting to take root so that I can send them to friends. I’ve just liked having entities to care for, and I think for me, it helps put things in perspective. It’s like, ‘Yeah, I’m fucking depressed and I want to die today, but I also have to, like, make sure that my Forgotten Weapons French 75 Shirt in contrast I will get this dog can piss outside.’
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Well, I have four other books in the Forgotten Weapons French 75 Shirt in contrast I will get this works right now, and one is literally called Rape Girl. That has been the hardest thing I’ve ever worked on. Um, and I do feel like I can sort of like put away like, relationships with exes; like, the Betty Draper essay helped me feel like I closed a really bad chapter in my life, which was my year of grappling with dating really shitty men. And I think that coming to the end of that year, and coming to the end of that essay, like, it definitely felt like I was putting a book away. The rape work is different, primarily because… I’m never going to be someone who wasn’t raped, you know what I mean? The PTSD from that, it follows you, even though I’m in a very different emotional space than I was, you know, for many years after. I like the feeling of making sort of object that almost crystallizes or calcifies a certain emotion or experience, and becomes sort of like tangible. I think that has been important in terms of feeling more in control of my life and my history. But I think emotional healing is something that is continuous, and might last forever. I can’t speak for anyone but myself, but I think that there were times when I was displacing that trauma, and imagining that as healing; I think understanding that that trauma’s going to be with me, and I need to learn to have some sort of authority over it, has been more important to me than any idea of closure.